Tomorrow is my last day of work. I feel like I have been living in the future now for the past couple weeks. Everything is countdowns and waiting. Nothing matters day to day. I do not see tomorrow as a whole new day with new possibilities, I see it as one more day in the countdown to my big trip. I tend to do this when I'm about to travel. Everything else fades away, and I become consumed with thoughts and preparations.
But this time it feels different. It's not going to be as easy to sneak away.
Luckily, I will always know that no matter how many times I leave my family to travel the world, they will always be there, waiting for me, when I return. They will not turn their backs on me, or leave me for someone else. They will never forget me, no matter how long I'm gone.
Any level-headed person would say that I'm walking away from what could be a great thing. I can't stop thinking about how easy I have it here in Portland, and how I'm just giving it up like it doesn't even matter. But, I am. And I'm glad I am. I can't sit still, can't continue living the way I am.
I am, however, sad to be leaving this wonderful city and the wonderful relationship I have formed here. I can't say it enough. This will be the hardest goodbye yet.
On a happier note...I will soon be back in MD, and I absolutely can't wait. Christmas is a great time of year, although it makes emotions so much more emotional...haha.
See you all soon. Much love (Sarah, doesn't that saying remind you of Marc Broussard?) Haha.
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